Eternal panic response
I just got an assessment done 2ish months ago so if you have any questions about what to expect feel free to ask away

omg you’re great

apparently I’m going to get a green form and a black form and I should give the black form to someone who knows me well and fill the green form in myself

what kind of stuff do they ask? Like, “are you shit at organisation y/n” or more “rate your shitness at organisation out of five”????

I followed this tutorial for bra fitting and I’m apparently a 36KK. I’m so not ok with this????? Pls invent boob donation stations asap b/c that’s like 3 possible boob for interested parties

Also my psydoc has put me forward for an ADHD assessment (which Emily transgirlsatan called like, years ago :P) and yeah 

apparently BPD and ADHD comorbidity is a pretty common thing (although BPD comorbidity with like…. everything… is a P Common Thing)

so… yay?

also my psydoc pointed out that if I don’t come forward with thoughts I’ve had about my mental health (aka ‘self-DXing’) it makes her life a billion times harder because she can’t observe me all the time and can’t know just by osmosis what’s going on.

gee, golly, who ever could have guessed that

transgirlsatan replied to your post: Me: Has panic attack in waitingroom of…

fuck showers tho

I like showers when I’m in them provided the water pressure is high enough that it like, beats down onto my skin b/c that’s a really nice sensation and is actually really soothing for me

but actually getting up the courage/whatever to get in them is difficult and esp. with being off all meds for a few weeks now (oops) it’s just… not… happening

Me: Has panic attack in waitingroom of therapy because reality feels paper thin and I’m terrified if I move or say anything I’ll break through

Me: Moves to the loo to have a panic attack in peace and can’t stop hysterically laughing because it’s all just ridiculous

Me: Has been washing in the sink for about two weeks because getting in the actual shower is unfaceable

Me: A customer touches me on the shoulder and I have to be sent home after flashbacks render me unintelligible

Me: “…”

Me: “I’m a terrible person who is faking mental illness.”


Last Night in Ferguson (9.28-9.29): Last night’s protest was one of the in Ferguson this month, proving once again that the residents of Ferguson/STL County are some of the most resilient and inspiring in all the land. The police were literally holding peaceful protesters hostage late into the night (folks who were complying with all police requests) so they could negotiate with the remaining folks to leave, but the protesters didn’t back down. Eventually all arrestees were released, and many plan to be back out there tonight.

Injustice in Ferguson continues, but despite it, community now thrives too. This is still happening. Are you still paying attention? #staywoke #farfromover

raspberryflavored replied to your post “ROIT, I’m going to bed if any of you think of any topics/subjects that…”

Art sucks?!

I was being facetious and deliberately provocative, soz

that should have been “‘Art’ sucks” b/c I’m not talking about the act of creating artworks, or even the concept of art, but rather the specific fetishisation of ‘Art’ and art canon that occurs within the modern ~art scene~ and, moreso in common understandings of the art scene

(so: ‘Art’ as neoliberal money machine and status object vs. collaborative art projects, art as activism, art as reclaiming/speaking/exploring/loving as marginalised peoples, art as aesthetic and aesthetic exploration etc.)